Tired!!!

Assalammualaikum....



Tired!Tired!Tired! that's what i can say about me now.....but, what could i do?? If i don't work, who r going to pay my loans & others....i don't want to burden my parents...in fact, i don't want to burden anybody at all! So, whatever it is, i have to take it lah...otherwise, it's my choice:D

Lately nih, sampai umah pn dah around 9++++ ...normally,sampai2, doing personal things..dah dkt kul 10...then dok depan laptop sat heheeh wajib,xleh tinggal...sambil tgk tv, kul 11 masuk tido...esoknya, kul 5.30 dah bangun...kul 6.45 kuar...sampai parking @ opis around 7.40am,lepak sat dlm keta, kul 8.10 baru masuk opis...& balik around 8.50-9pm..xleh elak, keje berlambak..time opis hour, xsempat nak setle coz dok melayan tepon cust bangang...isk isk...tu yg fobia nak jwb tepon skrg..eheheh haa tulah my routine everyday! seems boring kan? so, weekend esp sunday will be my resting day! just lazying around at home...time tulah nak basuh baju,kemas umah yg x terkemas hehehe ermm don't know til when kan nak camnih...nih baru sorang je nih heheeheh isk isk! payah...payah...

Sometimes terpikir, betul ke my decision dulu?is this what i want? I let go something to get something better...but to get something better need me to give more...but that's life right? whatever i choose, it will affect my whole life...like now, i loose my freedom...effect my r/ship with my family....jarang dpt balik...jarang dpt jwb call..jarang dpt call icha...ermm but whatever, it depends on me kan...ermm apa2pun..what i need now is...........................................................

Right and Wrong

Is there a dividing line between right and wrong?

If so, where is it at, and how can I find it?
Because it seems to be so subjective
Many are confused and argue where it lies

But whenever a choice arises between
Right and wrong, what we should and should not do
We intuitively know the choice we should make
Because it has to do with the signals we see

There’s a light always shining from everyone’s eyes
Always available if we choose to look
Providing us info to their current needs
Letting us know how we may be of service

Here is the fundamental question at hand—
Do we serve them or do we serve ourselves?
This is the difference between right and wrong
Self-aggrandizement versus love towards others

Do we do it for praise, reward, or glory
Or is it for the benefit of others?
Do we do it to feel better about ourselves
Or does it serve a purpose in society?

Could it be for self-justification?
Do we do it to ease our own burdens?
What about for self-gratification?
Could it be to appease our own egos?

Do we like ourselves in doing the task
Or do we enjoy the task for its purpose?
Because if our choices do not serve others
We can be sure we’re serving ourselves

Remember that people are always the ends
And should never be employed for the means
Because if people are utilized that way
We’re using them as pawns for own purposes

The key isn’t always to do the right thing
But to have the right motive behind the action
Any time justification pops up
We can be sure our hearts are not right

Any time a wrong decision we make
We feel that gnawing sensation in our soul
We then have to lie to ourselves to feel OK
To prove to ourselves our decision is right

Because in our own minds we would never choose
A wrong decision knowing we’re at fault
Self-deception and lies always accompany
Those choices so we can put our conscience at ease

These are the indicators between right and wrong
Do we live in tension and discomfort
Or do we feel free with a clear mind and pure heart?
One path leads to remorse, the other to joy

If right decisions we consistently make
We will trust ourselves and others will too
Because the worst feeling to have inside
Is when we can’t even trust the choices we make

–Jason Westlake
Wed., November 22, 2006